well, since i don't know who i can talk to. so i write it here. yesterday, i got an email from my dad. he said he would be unemployed in february. when i got this message, i was like, oh. and then nothing to say. first, my mum has been unemplayed since december 08. now my dad got the same shit. i'm totally pissed off. i don't know what to do.
as you guys know, i'm studying in US. it's all about money, ok? i wasn't born from a rich family. i can't act nothing about that. but also, i know i can do nothing on it. although my mum always says 'don't worry about it. we will let you to study the BA degree in US', do you think i can be no worry at all?
this semester is just started. it already took me a lot of money. school fee, housing, food, blah blah blah. everything, everything is money, ok! i really don't know what to do. i just don't wanna be a sucker who only knows using money. take a look at my friends, i'm so proud of them. they got jobs. they got their own business. and then who am i? i'm such a sucker. i'm still asking money from my mum.
if i wanna get a BA degree, i will need to spend 2.5 years at least. then where's the money for these 2.5 fucking years in US? i don't know. i really don't know. should i keep going for my dream? or i should go back home.
hey homies, if you see this message, please give me a call. i need somebody to talk to. i miss home. | 
